It’s been a year of numerous shades of experiences and honestly, I have had a fair share of the good, the bad and the ugly. Last month started off greatly until the 19th night when I felt pain in all […]
It’s been a year of numerous shades of experiences and honestly, I have had a fair share of the good, the bad and the ugly.
Last month started off greatly until the 19th night when I felt pain in all its glory. I was utterly broken, I asked God deep questions, I cried for hours and was lost for days. I have always known God to be in the storms but I didn’t have this memo please.
It took me 5 days to fully recover but the shock of what happened overwhelmed me last Friday and I gave in to tears again (PSA: I am a highly emotional human woman😎). Today, I went down memory lane; thankful for my healing, for the strength my heart embraced and the fact that I have found myself again. While these went on, a question dropped in my heart- “What did October teach you?”
I decided to share some answers with you my reader, hoping that you may be inspired. Kindly read on:
- You must have heard it a thousand times but the truth about life not being a bed of roses remains. Sometimes, there is no warning signal but you have to be there for yourself. You need to be present, to engage in all the emotions that come with the problem but try not to forget when things were smooth. This would help you heal, trust me.
- If you believe in God, pour out your heart to Him because He gets you completely. Don’t hold back. Avoid structure in prayer. Please, be sincere about your feelings while conversing with Him. God pays attention. For my Christian friends, the Holy Bible may be the last thing to read but it’s actually a rest place. You find answers and situations you can relate to. The Word is power-FULL.
- Be nice. Do not transfer aggression or your pain on innocent friends and family. Some of my very good friends noticed I was off but I couldn’t see myself letting them in to share in the pain. It was tough to claim the ‘jagaban’ status but I had to do what I had to do. I hope I am forgiven. Although, I am certain they wouldn’t have complained but everyone has been going through a lot already, adding mine wasn’t such a great choice.
- Pain isn’t permanent. You will find happiness. It may take a while to find peace but it must happen and when it does, protect it.
I was looking forward to seeing the end of October, I won’t lie. It was such a full package!!!
As I write this, I am truly grateful I am in a better place, psychologically, mentally and emotionally. My prayer is for November to be kind to you and yours in all ways. Even if things don’t go as planned, Be Still and know you will pull through.
I love you dearly.